Ergo ego
I'm not sure where I'm going or what I'm doing with the internet right now. I've played with the so called "small web" for a few months, and I feel just as atomized and unheard as I do on social media ( while remaining under the ever widening gaze of the data hawkers ) (( while remaining anxious that I am laid bare and made obvious to All )) ((( just because I want to be Seen doesn't mean I want to be noticed )))
My lack of computer knowledge is partially to blame. I find so many interesting and easy to use tools that feel anything but easy to folks without a degree in computer science. Folks being me. I get lost in the muchness of it all. I'm riding an internet wave, but it still doesn't feel like the "old" web. Not that I ever really found much connection there either.
The answer, or at least the one that has come to me while writing this, is to just make a little cottage in the internet woods just for myself. Why worry about interactions that may never come? (Of course I then worry about how I would go about backing up the work that I have put in. I wish I could go back to college if only to receive the oversight I need to study past surface level knowledge of something.) Leave the window cracked for the smallest chance of a friend sneaking in. Make some attempt to bar the door from hunters as the whole world (at least the states) feels like a hunting ground for the would be (or are?) gestapo. If words aren't safe, how do I get a gun?